I didn’t get round to weeknotes on Friday as I went to Restorative Design Conference which was hosted by the Greater Good Studio. So much to mull on and delve further into I’m glad I made the effort at the end of quite a week.

I’m not sure how to dice things up – that much we already know by the fact that I don’t like or use the term work and that boundary in this ‘work’ing from home state is I think more obvious and also even less distinct. I’ve started sorting out the insulation in our loft. Is some of that time chargeable to my employer? Arguably it should be but i’m not looking it up, but I’m sure we have a policy on that somewhere and a form or indeed many forms.

For the first time this week I delved into the responses to the call for views, having the data exploration tool is really helpful. I got very excited when after reading many comments my brain spurted out ‘form not forms’ I added it with a number of other comments to the introduction of the document. I had hoped to speak to the person doing the anylis, as we would have liked something before the end of day (which ever one it was) but having tried three different ways of getting in touch I failed. Something I find quite hard – gone are the days where I would walk to another office and get what was needed in a matter of minutes, but on the plus side it means when you want to focus you truly can.

I’ve been a little discombobulated (read, grumpy/low) recently and the beginning of the week was hard. On Thursday at the Reform Champions Lunch one of the Champions had identified it as incongruence. I’ve been talking about it lots, often in terms of balance with lots of hand waving. Incongruence though hits the nail on the head because I think of the negative impact in the long run. How and where I talk this through I’m really not quite sure, but I definitely need too if there is one thing I’ve missed in spades this year is a safe space to do that.

This week I finally put it in an email to X and A that I would like to stay in the team, my subtle hints and wanting to be asked were not being heard. I found out on Saturday that the job outside of the Civil Service that I applied for I didn’t progress. Still I gained a few things that I couldn’t have hoped for when starting that process. I’m pondering about applying for some Civil Service jobs, and continuing to look for external things that are closely aligned with my values and mission. I now need to see if the team where my deck chair is in Defra will allow me to extend my loan and to pay them back the money I owe. Bless the team in Cabinet Office for that headache.

In other great news for the Reform Hack/s I’m getting to work with Y on our team more closely – which is great. We’ve chatted but not worked closely on much even though we both work on engagement. I do worry though that this means that the team will be driving more than holding space for the Reform Hack/s still maybe we can work through that balance in other ways.

Working from Defra in the Future Farming and Countryside Programme, OneTeamGov and UKGovCamp. Government romantic and lover of tea